Good Morning.....Happy Chinese New Year....!!!

Today is a new day for me...a new life...perhaps a better me...huhuhu I'm trying myself to be normal as I can be...I have to forget all the sadness...all the things I've done...and now...my focus, only towards my precious mother...

Last night I was so sad looking at my mum....it brought tears to my eyes....it seems really hard for her to breath well since she had problems with her heart....praying for her best is always be my prior whenever I prayed...to the ALMIGHTY is the only one I can complain to..and it really did help me to calm myself...

It's 10.00am....I hope I can go through this tough life well....about the 'ALL THOUGHTS'...I'll try to resist them and be me again since it's still a NEW YEAR right??? That's all from me now....daaaa....

Tamat sudah segalanya....Permulaan baharu bakal bermula...

22nd January 2012....

It will be the most unforgettable day of my life since it starts with a good day and ends with disaster...I was so frustrated and disappointed for what i have done before for xxx and it ended like hell...maybe this is the sign for me to begin a new life...a much much better life....forget the past and say HELLO to future....a bright and successful life I hope...surely I'm hoping for the best right? In order to achieve that.....I'll work hard and smart...I must know how to manage myself and most importantly my family life and the future life....

Actually, it's quite hard for me to accept it....seriously hard...but after done some prayers...prayed for the best....and Alhamdulillah...it worked...it's okay I guess...this year i'll be 26...i'm totally matured with my decision...but sometimes...it reminds me....is it because of 'that', this what i get??? if I flashback again, I've been through much tougher than this...n it took me a few hours to think about 'how could xxx do that to me?' it really broke my heart..but then I'm cured after a few flashback of our unforgettable and fun experience together....but why xxx couldn't do the same thing too?? however....it seems that....it wasn't good enough and look, what xxx had done to me today...? how could xxx...... how dare xxx.....it's really really unforgivable... unbelievable....unexpected...un-everything....hell xxx right...it's my mistake to know xxx....

This time, xxx broke my heart twice....and when it comes to TWICE....bye bye from me...

The LAST DAY of 2011...!!!

Today, 31st December 2011, 7.01 pm

It's gonna be the last day ever for 2011....time runs really fast until we did not realize what we have done through out the year....surely there'll be sad and joy...but Alhamdulillah...e'thing went well...except..........well.....you know...as a fresh graduate...I surely wanna have a job that fits me and I'll enjoy doing it...but....REZEKI belum sampai....what to do right...all I can say 'KESIAN KAT MAK'.....T-T...I wish I can make her happy when looking at what she had been through since last year till now...It was tough and rough...yet she still STRONG and such a FIGHTER...I adore and admire her a lot...

Not ONLY me saying this....I'm sure, people out there will feel the same thing too since we don't have a job and income...nothing fun to do...no employer...no colleague...no nothing....yet still spending our precious time with family and friends....NO DOUBT about it...

I'm not saying that I'm fussy and choosy in accepting any job position...is just that...I wanna feel good, happy and enjoy in doing jobs, financially and mentally...talking about physically...huhuhu don't even ask...

Frankly speaking, I've received a number of interviews for particular job position...but....they make me think twice to figure it out whether to accept it or not...this is due to my mindset that I'll get a job at NORTHPORT...my former employer during my practical training..i really wish I could work there again...and it would totally change my family lifestyle...

So we'll see how it goes in 2012...wish me LUCK...!!! coz I really do need that....huhuhu...

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS....!!!!

-Aini Sarif-

  

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Honesty is the BEST Policy

Hey there, we meet again...
Now lets talk about H.O.N.E.S.T.Y, Honesty....

I'm sure...many of you out there familiar with this word right...?
but how many of you practice it in real life?

Actually...in my opinion for certain cases or situations, honesty is so crucial however...sometimes it doesn't work at all...malahan sendiri terluka ada lah...huhuhu

So what should we do..? should we practice it or not?
herm....

Mom's LOVE

This year i'm gonna be 25 years old. Believe it or not, for me....i feel like...IS THIS REAL? OMG....!! I'm getting older and same as my lovely and precious mom...she's turning 55 this year...25th March is her birthday...

Frankly speaking, i really wish that i can buy her something or do something that can make her happy...since lately she had to go through few cycles of CHEMOTHERAPY...this Wednesday is gonna be her 4th cycle of chemotherapy...and i'm totally worry about it...why? easy...because for the 3rd cycle that day..my mom went through a very tough day..to be exact, 17 hours non stop vomiting...on that particular time, i was like... so sad, hurt, pity and kinda crying (but cover skit la) because for me, it looked so hard for her to go through the medication...

Please PRAY for my mom ya...

Be TOUGH!!!

Things happened again...and again..and again...and again..............
(sigh)

Is it because of me? my attitude? my words? herm....
I really don't know why...i just feel that they are ignoring me for certain reason...
I totally hate that...who likes to be ignored right?
Should i follow their rhythm even though it is not right..?

Help me....

What should i do?
or is it me that being so sensitive.....?
but that's life...

Thesis...Thesis...

Today is the day that i've to meet up my advisor. Hopefully everything will go smoothly. Frankly speaking, i'm kinda 'scared' and curious to meet him. Perhaps because i've never met him before.

I understand...everyone's busy with their routine life especially lecturers but then...this is new for me...pray for the best...!!! huhuhuhu

The most critical thing that i've been thinking lately regarding with 'the meeting' is that......PARKING...!!!!

OMG..!! Where should i park my car? Near the faculty which will lead to 'SAMAN' or ?????? hermmmm...really bugging me la this matter...

HELP!!!!!

Sadness fills the air....

13th January 2011.

I feel a bit offended and i know the reason why. I can't do anything to overcome this feeling. It always appears when i go to work, sometimes during 'lepak' with my friends etc.

I really don't know what to do but what i know is that i'll go blurr and lost focus in doing things. As a result, i'll be commented and believe it or not, i HATE to be commented.

But what to do, no one's PERFECT right?! herm...

Improvise...!!!

Personality plays enormous role in each and everyone who called themselves as HUMAN BEING..no one is perfect but trying to be perfect in everyting u do is crucial so that you'll be respected and appreciated...but the MOST IMPORTANT thing in order to earn that...CHANGE...!!! not hangat2 tahi ayam...but for real...for the sake of our own precious future...!!! (reminding myself)